– I got 10 years to fill a stadium but only two minutes to fill your cranium. Humble The Poet signing in. I’m recording this in one swoop because I don’t want it
to be too distracting. When you have a job that pays
a salary and it gives you the same amount every single paycheck, it can feel like a wonderful thing. But that comfort and security
can also make you very lazy and irresponsible with your money. When I started working as a teacher, it didn’t take long for me to take every single dollar I made and allocate it to a bunch of
stuff probably never needed. On top of that, I lured into
the idea of quick, easy money and started taking a lot of risks with how I spend that money. And that includes investing in many things I didn’t understand and in many people I probably
shouldn’t have trusted. That resulted in me losing a lot of money and going into a gang of debt. So what does the smart guy do when he has a regular
income but he’s in debt? Well, obviously he
scales back his spending, starts to live on a responsible budget, and works slowly to get
himself out of that debt. But I wasn’t a smart
guy, so guess what I did? I quite my job. Is this the inspiring
story of me quitting my job to pursue a journey called
Humble The Poet full-time? No, this is the part
where I think the best way to get out of debt is to
take more uncalculated risks and chase a deal which I
thought will get rid of my debt in one fell swoop. Clearly I had to learn my lesson. And while I waited for that
magical deal to go through, I ended up spending more money. More spending plus no
job equals more debt. But of course that deal went through and all my problems and
debts were solved, right? Wrong, the deal fell through. Actually, it never exited. I was lied to. And it wasn’t even some
elaborate, complicated web of lies that got the best of me. It was a simple lie
that I tried my hardest to believe was true. We’ve all done it, we’ve
all believed in things that we knew weren’t through
but we really wish they were. And I was no exception. So now, I had no job,
no deal, a broken heart from being betrayed by people
I thought were my friends, and a lot of debt to the tune of $80,000. Yes, that’s an eight with four zeros. But to the outside
world, I had left my job to chase my dreams of
being Humble The Poet. And according to social
media, I was winning! When really I was having
hourly anxiety attacks. I was avoiding my friends and my family and I lost 15 pounds. And it’s not like I have
much to lose it from. And NyQuil became my best friend. And finally, I understood why people don’t like talking about money. It’s because it bubbles up feelings of shame, insecurity, and fear. I was ashamed of the decisions I made, I was insecure about my
ability to fix the problem, and I was afraid things would get worse. And this made me have a very low outlook on myself and my life. I was a failure, I was an
embarrassment to myself, my friends, my family,
and everyone around me, including my fans. And I didn’t wanna face that. When we encounter an
ongoing and growing problem, we got three options. One, we can ignore it
and hope it goes away and suffer the consequence, which I tried and things got worse. Two, we can pray and search
for a miracle to fix it, which I also did and things got worse. Or three, we can face it and
look our problem in the eye, figure out what we’re
doing to feed that problem, and figure out what we need to do to start feeding a solution. Option number three meant I
need to be honest with myself and that meant doing a lot
of uncomfortable things. That list of uncomfortable
things, coincidentally, was the same list that made me feel insecure, afraid, and ashamed. I had to face them, I had to
tell people what happened, I had to ask for help, I
had to admit I made a lot of irresponsible choices. And even though I made some bad choices, that doesn’t make me a bad person. And when you realize there’s a difference between you and your choices, then you can change your
choices to improve your life. The years that I follow, I
so sweetly refer to as my, “Struggling artist years.” It was hard! But those years turned out to be the years that made me grow the most. I learned what was really important to me and how many of my fears
simply only existed in my head. It took three full years,
a lot of hard work, a lot of pride-swallowing,
and a lot of sacrifice. But I got myself out of debt. – [Children] Yay! And once I did, I did not
go back to my old ways ’cause those experiences
made me a new person. That’s the person that most of you are meeting and connecting with. I can only day smart stuff now because I did and learned from a lot of the dumb things I did. And guess what? I’m still making stupid decisions. And that’s okay because our
mistakes are our teachers. I’m in a much better situation now but it took a lot of time and
a lot of work to get here. And I don’t plan on going back
and that’s my big takeaway. There’s always light at
the end of the tunnel as long as you’re willing to claw, dig, and fight to get to it. I’m sharing this story
because a lot of you who are watching are in situations that feel super impossible. And I just want you to know that if you take the baby
steps in the right direction, they will slowly add up
and things will get better. Don’t focus on building the whole wall, just focus on one brick at a time. Those habits that I had developed
during that difficult time has now set me up to
be in the best position I’ve ever been in: mentally, physically,
spiritually, and financially. And now, I’m at the point where if I can go back in time and change the thing, I would not. And that’s what I’d told myself when I was at my lowest point. I said,
“Humble, we are going “to work our asses off “until we can look back at this moment “and be glad it happened.” Because a lot of our struggles, especially the painful, and daunting, and impossible feeling ones can be gifts. We don’t have to search for
a silver lining all the time because we can create one. And I really hope sharing my story can help you with whatever
you’re struggling with right now. And this isn’t a story to many people, no. And I’m sharing it with you
because I consider you family, and I hope you find value in it. And plus, you guys help
me get out of that debt. You guys bought the
books, came to the shows, supported the crowd-funding campaigns. You guys were an integral
part of helping me get to this situation I’m in right now. Some of you have spend money on me, some of you have spend energy on me, some of you have spend time on me. And I appreciate all of it
because it’s all valuable and you could be spending it anywhere, but you’ve been spending it with me. So thank you. Thank you so much for watching. As always, please comment,
rate, and subscribe. I wanted to put this
video out very quickly ’cause thought the message was important and I thought you guys
could find some value to it. Let me know your thoughts in terms of how we did it with the format. A lot more stuff coming:
including new music, new, creative videos, as well
as a couple more of these. And I’m going on a special trip next month and I’ll take you guys with me. Please remember to share this
with people you care about, and people that you
don’t, and anybody else that you feel would
benefit from seeing this. Much love! ♪ Even though you thought
you was my sunny day ♪ ♪ You left me burnt ♪ ♪ And the tan line
exists around the space ♪ ♪ Where my heart is or was ♪ ♪ You thought that because ♪ ♪ There was a dependency ♪ ♪ We can call that shit love ♪ ♪ But it wasn’t ♪ ♪ Love is something you don’t know ♪ ♪ And we too passionate to pass it up ♪ ♪ So Fast Forward ♪ ♪ Skip the awkwardness the mushy parts ♪ ♪ To 1:43 ♪ ♪ At the moment when we realized ♪ ♪ Our ship is gon sink ♪ ♪ Uh oh it was funny now that I admit it ♪ ♪ But another six to seven
months had past before we split ♪ ♪ So that’s two seasons of bullshit ♪ ♪ Followed by the coldest winter ♪ ♪ Then healing ♪ ♪ Bullets with butterfly wings came ♪ ♪ Saying stupid things man ♪ ♪ All up in your brain ♪ ♪ Now my fame it gets the blame then ♪ ♪ Yeah I got a couple fans ♪ ♪ But it’s only me and
you in this room arguing ♪ ♪ Don’t want you in my life ♪ ♪ I don’t wanna live a lie ♪ ♪ My feelings are gone ♪ ♪ She don’t wanna say goodbye ♪ ♪ Don’t want you in my life ♪ ♪ But it’s killing me inside ♪ ♪ So get the fuck out my life ♪